im sorry that you refuse to listen to me, no matter what. that your boyfriend is better than your best friend, that when all of the juniors graduate, im hell as not standing up for you. the fact that most girls, and guys, think you have sex with your boyfriend on a regular basis doesn't bother you, but also that most people think your going to be the one girl in our grade to get preggers. i know i tried to help you with what people think of you and not caring about it, but thats a little too far. displaying yourself as a whore will do nothing for, 'cept catch a few diseases. i have tried to help you will your self esteem issues, but instead of letting me pull you out you found it easier to just pull me in and use me. but i have learned to float, and you cant. people can't define me the way they have defined you. even when they do, i have friends who i can talk to. you have cut yourself from all of your friends, except for your boyfriend, who is effing two years older than you, and your new junior bestfriend. you tease me instead of standing up for me, so i am no longer standing up for you. i actually tried to be a really good friend, and i was worried that you would make the wrong decision when you went out with them and they smoked, but do whatever the fuck you want with your life now. i am not being friends with a person that only sees the world for herself, and i have been trying to be a better person and get rid of my depression, when you just seem to be pushing me back into the black hole i dug for myself last year. and i have had it. so goodbye. not like anyone reads these journals anyways.